Sunday, March 21, 2010
just got scolded by mom. again
it seems like i just cant control that temptation for games, fun and slack.
and then i go and look @ other ppl.
Great class
High GPAs
Many awards
Student Council welfare head
Nerd but smart Smart
ppl who says GG after a test but score an A1
SL who gets alot of disposables..
what about me?
Noob shit
Low GPA thru out the year
no awards
No group in
Not Nerd, but not smart
ppl whosays GG after a test and scores a D7.
a nobody
some times i just think im so useless and my life is so miniscule so much so that it doesnt even exist. like my existence doesnt mean anything. i tried so hard to be accepted, yet when i pass or fail, i dun feel satisfied. i kept reminding myself to control, whether in temptation of food or games of etc, i just cant do it. i cant keep it going. duno wad to say right now. i only think the best way to stay away from them is to not go home and study @ school, no games can reach me there. and for diet maybe i just dun bring money at all. but exercise whise i cnt do anything.
Then i look @ ppl again.
their socare free,
ppl who can play all day long and score and A1
ppl who can self control their temptations ppl who DONT CHEAT THEMSELVES AND THEIR PARENTS just to get stuff. if their parents dun allow, then they just forget it
ppl who can just leave a game hanging there and not be bothered like it never existed
what about me?
always constrant
ppl who can play all day long and score a D7
ppl who cannot have self control even after so many attempts to control temptations. ppl who CHEAT THEMSELVES AND THEIR PARENTS to get stuff. if their parents dun allow, then they will tink off multiple ways just to get it.
ppl who cannot leave a game or icon hanging there and always constantly be bothered about it
i feel so low. even in my class. ppl who are always so smart, so successful, while i wither away in my stupid comfort zone. i feel so useless, and miserable right now no amt of self reflecting will work
posted by ħЄᶇȐÿ ʠì
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